My method regarding the relationship I was in and which has now gone into some spontaneous regenerative process is of utility. I did in fact ride to the brink of jettisoning the relationship with a heart and mind of determination. What is interesting is the quality of the determination. My intention was to move into a relationship, either some future iteration of this one or some other wherein certain of my needs would be met. This intention, (qualified by merits one might find in a magical or other ceremonial operation) was conditioned with the conception that all and any involved would achieve some greater measure of wholeness by moving through the process..
What went on was something that had every aspect of a breakup and diaspora.. but then what ensued involved a tiny immature black Japanese kitten, A fantastic dancer in a club in Hiroshima and a midnight phone conversation with an Amazonian shamanness deep in my confidence.. which phone call of course happened on the full moon just after an intensive healing ceremony involving Ayahuasca and the prospect of my arrival there to design/build temple space...
Long and short, everything exploded. there was tears and anger and dejection... and then somehow, later that day a healing ceremony involving 7 Japanese people, some leftover Amazonian medicines, some illicit materials from the market district and some inspired interaction between Tarot, human desire and some brand of diagnostic yogic interpretations of people's energy states and auras unfolded without agenda or previous experience. Things just happened.. and it was clear choreography like any great ceremony... When it was done... the intention came full in its most unexpected manner, everything was rearranged like the shuffle, perfectly stacked between hands of Pinnochle... poof! new world!
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